Do you even have a say in the personality of your child? Do you get to mold them to be kind or outgoing or funny or curious? You don't need to answer, because I don't imagine you truly know the answer yourself. But whether we have any say or not, I do picture Charlotte a certain way: talkative, curious, and bright. Sometimes I picture her playing by a stream (not like I often venture to streams... something I need to change) wearing all creams and greys and browns, throwing pebbles or watching birds. Sometimes I picture her painting pictures inside, with a mess spread all around her; wearing all neons and bright saturated tones. I've been reading parenting and homeschooling books out the wazzoo, trying to pick up any piece of Biblical or experiential wisdom I can find.
Mostly, I've realized that we were created in the image of God (Genesis 1:26), and God is a Creator, an Author, and a lover of beautiful things. All the things I dream for Charlotte are possible, even likely, the closer she gets to the God who loves her more than we ever could. It's going to be hard. Sleepy. Frustrating. I'm under no delusion, but I'm looking forward to the snuggles and the questions: the joy of parenting.
We got more information about the boys we may get to foster/adopt. The court has moved toward severing the parental rights of the father (their mother is deceased), and we'll get more news after the next court case at the beginning of November.
I need to start packing my hospital bag at some point. What are some things you think are necessities?